heavy breath turns pools of sweat into cooled wet you slide your fingers down my chest and over my stomach slowing above my legs and before I could have said you position your head right where I need my eyes are shut but I feel you feed a tender hunger delicate and deep laid down in a full spread but still you’re bringing me to my knees and I’ve been holding onto a hard ass week so please please me
Love Induced Wounds
and it’s like a heart was carved in two strokes deep into the side of my arm he never meant to harm but I watched as the blood rolled across my skin and pooled in my palm until it turned dark and flaked off in bits of brown running water removed all but the scar I hid it under jackets and sarcasm and kak praat and laughs I almost forgot it and then boom here you are and I’m picking at it nails digging into
I am trying my best to control the sway of my emotions lately each day has been a back and forth…
I am trying my best to control the sway of my emotions lately each day has been a back and forth motion of big swings and rolling tides in between big feelings I don’t know if I’ve swum too far beneath or if I’m reaching nearer to healing I feel I’m being self aware but then overspilling overthinking and sinking deeper into a darkness I, myself, am creating and further from the light I worked so hard to break in the light that is still taking so much of my energy so much of me and yet, I’m down here where the light cannot be seen where I cannot see me where I cannot believe where love cannot dream where hope cannot breathe.
I am trying to stay kind to myself be honest and self-aware but sometimes my mind lays in stealth…
I am trying to stay kind to myself be honest and self-aware but sometimes my mind lays in stealth mode ready to go setting up to blow and I know that the lows feed the highs and I can’t be high all of the time even though I really try to remind myself that without darkness there is no light.